Holidays of a Navy man

Erm...maybe this is my last post of this semester already. This semester past really fast. just like a flashing of light and a flipping of eye. I still remember the time i fly to jb and also my 1st time of flying...the feeling is still here...this semester really change me a lot...got good also got bad...nothing is perfect. the next day i have one more paper that is manufacturing...after that i straight away going back home accompanying course mate visiting penang island. After finish mechanic of solid paper i clean up my room and pack all my stuff in to boxes for clearing room purpose...although i have training in the college next week but we still need to clear the room as we have an agenda of so called night round that make sure our room is in tidy and clean condition...that stupid night round is damn very fussy , every time after we back to room we need to mop the floor and all the desk ,cabin and every single piece of thing in the room...
if the officer find out some dust then variety of punishment will be kena haha...
I am going to be torture and abuse by the officer next week and the duration of training is one week at uni and two week at head quarter(FOC). I hate side roll coz it makes me suffering from the feeling of vomiting. i wont vomit but others will so the smell make me feel disgusting and going to vomit as well. two days roll once enough then my head will be feeling like spinning every moment ...that is what a navy guy need to take.
An more interesting story will be written out when i finish training...hiax...back to this semester story, erm..i knew to play forex (an introduction only), and made a lot of sei tong @ zhong qiu out there...I make a regretful thing during zhong qiu...my heart was so narrow that i dun like angie covering her friends and try to negotiate wit me abt stall problem...that is just a small matter but wider the gaps btw me and her...finally i realize tht i was wrong and should not because of this tiny thing let her suffering all the hardship in preparing of the lantern event. I should always give her full support and giving big hand when she needs. But i really dun know what should help coz she never shares her problem wit us...haix...dun talk this liao ...her scar will never gone when the incident happened during fake preview. One more lesson for me also, never target on some one is still in the period of recovery coz anytime she will back to her ex. Thats all, Hope the coming semester i would be more enriching. As the time constrain , my language use also blur haha...if there is any grammar mistake o spelling pls do correct me in the bar chat. Happy holiday to all and Mr john...dream to a pilot will never cool down

That is what i wants ?

Fear comes and goes~Every time final exam is approaching ,my heart beat start speed up the beat...When everyone really start into fighting mood i'm still in moody situation. Is this a real you like the past? I have fun with all my bud but i never have fun with myself~ What is the happiness that i really want? Totally out of word to express...I want a warm relationship and a comfortable life, but now every time i start to think of love i scare of breaking and hurt~ I also dun knw how to cure myself and how m i going to consult someone and finding cure. Life is all about making decision.
Choices that i m making now influence everything in the future~ FOREX...should i trust u and really into u? That is a big scarification on your study john, dream ,love and future. I should make a choice now...standing in the middle of a york choosing the right way to proceed... This is making life decision. I should choose forex .

Promotion of navy and start of the dream

Previously on this few days, i was doing the things and i like to do. study for this semester is quite free as all our project and assignment finish before test 2. On the last saturday i was hesitating of whether wana apply for the currently AirAsia cadet pilot recruitment. Finally decision have made and i have sent the resume and cover letter through online application. This is my golden chance although AirAsia was not my dream Airline but that is one of the subsidization of cadet pilot as well. I will improve myself drastically and prepare well upon called up to interview. Flight simulator training that i cant miss out on the preparation.
On 20th of OCT (yesterday), woke up at morning and shine my shine black cut leather shoes and iron my delta uniform smoothly.After have been joining Malaysia reserved Navy for one years plus, finally a promotion session has held at KD SRI MEDINI Tebrau naval base. The journey from Cadet to junior midshipment is such a hardship and tougher life. Pass in the fear and work everything to serve senior during training. In NAVY seniority is very addressed, no mater what also we also have to respect senior. Alfa routine which all the cadet of Navy should follow, ther is six rules such as cadet have to run upon see the sky, every step in counting such as salute, march and etc, eating square,drinking square, button up and move in a group. Life as a Navy is not an easier thing. That is totally difference from what i have joint during secondary school as school youth cadet.
DELTADog-tag Navy
Now, as a junior midshipment still have a long journey to go. Start worrying of the coming soon training ACT at headquarter base. What i heard from senior is much much tougher than we usual trained at UTM ACT. Whatever hardship come just come, i will never scare if it. rolling, push up, jumping set, starjump ,and........treat it as piece of cake hehe....What i wan from NAVY is an experience ,shooting wit GPMG, M16, AUG steyr and etc ...sailing experience that i most desire ...it is coming soon
AUG Steyr

L.I.F.E

3 test continuous that is really hard to take it... last saturday and sunday which is lantern festival ...i was so busy on preparing and arranging of stall selling. Tired, exhausted and fatigue what i gotta were sweet memory and a geng of brother and sister hehe...we really didnt differentiate who is responsible on this and who is responsible on that, what were in our mind is to succeed the event.
Today i m quite free as i m still lazy to start preparing for my next test o can be say as last test for this semester d. I just dont know why i keep on feeling tired and sleepy although i m doing nothing, maybe is mentality recovery after tension period.
Every event happen sure got matter behind it, sometimes i really sad of someone not really join into us and act lonely. I try to pull in but human is different in characteristic.
ok well, off this topic and i also no mood to talk about it.
How m i feeling recently ?
I always feel that i m not serious into everything, why i have this type of feeling ?
No idea hehe...but i have confident that everything i wan to do, i will do it better.
Time pass just like a flipping moment, i almost didnt realize that this semester is going off d...Next week will be the last week of my third semester, is time for me to review target that i set before.
My 1st target was to concentrate on my studies and to get 4 flat, i think i fail this.
2nd was to improve my english, well in the start of the semester i really did it but after busying on zhong qiu i fail to read english articles everyday.
3rd was to build body...seem like nothing improve haha...
Haix...all not really into plan, but never mind i will try to do it in the last week and fight for my exam. About my feeling after zhong qiu with someone...i dun know...my heart start falling again...its need time to prove does it really o not.
About my dream, the passion will never down, i will practice back the skill on flight simulator and crazy on aviation stuff.

A full stop for goodies dedication work

Two month i was so worry and headache ...finally i did it...zhong qiu(lantern festival) i sacrifice my time, spirit, and hard work.Lets me make a summary of it. The 1st recruitment member of my group (marketing) i was prepared to present in front but when the crowd is fulled the hall my heart beat start to become faster and faster. well nvm i tell myself just be who u are...The 1st few minute of explanation of my group was quite great but when the time i face the crowd i turn to be nervous. haix...really need to practice and practice. ok well my voice was absolutely ok as i attract a total of 120 members...yo ...absolutely great...but many members also got many problem. i was worry of the beginning because i totally dont have things for them to do except always ask them giving and squeezing ideas for the dedication goodies bag...the third week of asking all my member doing the same thing hahaha...finally cant wait to choose anymore. that two design is really hard to choose...and finally member from k11 gave me a big shock of their special design and also huh chen bring her sarawak box that at the top is a flower. i really miss to write blog as i stop quite a long time due to busy on many many many things. i steal my sleeping time to have some word on my abandon blog as the time now is 350am d and i really dun have energy to continue anymore...will update it soon and throw all my experience of preparing this lantern festival

1st outgoing to find sponsorship

Woke up at 7.25am but felt very struggle for going class and finally i choose to sleep back until 9.35am only go for my second lecture of thursday... Went through the lecture but at the end i found out i didnt learn anything in the slumber mood.Really feel physically exhausted and mentality tired...After finished all the lecture about 1pm, the weather was not on my side .Raining day but the work still have to carry on.We angie,wen qi, saw yee and me was eating duck rice at sri puteri . The beginning of fund raising was quite satisfy, after that we go to fetch my kulai friend Amy at skudai parade as she will be my navigator at kulai .She really gave me a big hand on the way finding all the Chinese society at kulai. But i felt guilty to her and acted ungently of letting her hungry.....she haven had her lunch before i picked her up at skudai parade. I was too selfish of just thinking not wasting time while waiting her but i didnt concern that whether she have taken lunch. Ok well, when i reached kulai ,the rain is still pouring but become lightly d...gone through one by one chinese society and finally finished all plus some additional society that we dun know and accidentally meet...so lucky la...After that we decided to raise fund shop by shop but we find out that is too hard to do that due to we cant provide the beneficial ...plane to come back tmn u finding but the god start crying again...oh no...what to do...just go back hostel and write my blog hahaha...thats all...smile and enjoy while working then we wont feel stress d

Responsible

I left my favorite self help book behind when hectic life goes on, spiritual break down when everything come simultaneously. What is my daily routine ??Erm...have to figure out and fix it. Too complicated and unorganized. undeniable that my time management and emotional control is quite poor. How could i really master my mind when hardship come to me? Especially tiredness , when i feel exhausted i would rather giving up everything but i tell myself ,this is not who you are, this is not your style of breaking responsibility. Though i m born at a small town with limited exposure but what i learnt since child was responsibility. Everyone lives with responsibility, no one can escaping from it. As we grow up, burden become more and more heavy, i should think of how to manage to capital lend by PTPTN, learn how to learn, starting planning for future in realistic way, responsible to everything we did and ETC...
Why i am here pursuing my studies ???

Simple reason that everyone gives which is the guarantee of future life. I seem like distancing my actual purpose of being here , mum i would like to apologize as i m losing myself in academic performance now, but i promised i will back it up in the following day . I promised myself that this semester must obtain at least near to flat result but what i m doing now was just always busying on others unrelated to my studies matter.
To be a good time management man would scarify the moment having meal with friends ,sharing ideas, always alone,rushing here and there...i m not afraid of being lonely but i just fear of getting not closer to my bud (course mate). Additional reason of insufficient time is 'Internet' that i m using LAN cable in my room now...damn la...no self discipline of always online (pros and con )
just i dont knw how to adjust it....Erm...life is easy if you think of easy...what we are now is what we decided in the past ,What we do now is what we are in the future. So...think of what actually you should do now to ensure your future undertaking....Pilot dream that i never forget though i m freaking busy but i still play flight simulator and reading related articles ...that is what i meant what is so important to me now....