Responsible

I left my favorite self help book behind when hectic life goes on, spiritual break down when everything come simultaneously. What is my daily routine ??Erm...have to figure out and fix it. Too complicated and unorganized. undeniable that my time management and emotional control is quite poor. How could i really master my mind when hardship come to me? Especially tiredness , when i feel exhausted i would rather giving up everything but i tell myself ,this is not who you are, this is not your style of breaking responsibility. Though i m born at a small town with limited exposure but what i learnt since child was responsibility. Everyone lives with responsibility, no one can escaping from it. As we grow up, burden become more and more heavy, i should think of how to manage to capital lend by PTPTN, learn how to learn, starting planning for future in realistic way, responsible to everything we did and ETC...
Why i am here pursuing my studies ???

Simple reason that everyone gives which is the guarantee of future life. I seem like distancing my actual purpose of being here , mum i would like to apologize as i m losing myself in academic performance now, but i promised i will back it up in the following day . I promised myself that this semester must obtain at least near to flat result but what i m doing now was just always busying on others unrelated to my studies matter.
To be a good time management man would scarify the moment having meal with friends ,sharing ideas, always alone,rushing here and there...i m not afraid of being lonely but i just fear of getting not closer to my bud (course mate). Additional reason of insufficient time is 'Internet' that i m using LAN cable in my room now...damn la...no self discipline of always online (pros and con )
just i dont knw how to adjust it....Erm...life is easy if you think of easy...what we are now is what we decided in the past ,What we do now is what we are in the future. So...think of what actually you should do now to ensure your future undertaking....Pilot dream that i never forget though i m freaking busy but i still play flight simulator and reading related articles ...that is what i meant what is so important to me now....