That is what i wants ?

Fear comes and goes~Every time final exam is approaching ,my heart beat start speed up the beat...When everyone really start into fighting mood i'm still in moody situation. Is this a real you like the past? I have fun with all my bud but i never have fun with myself~ What is the happiness that i really want? Totally out of word to express...I want a warm relationship and a comfortable life, but now every time i start to think of love i scare of breaking and hurt~ I also dun knw how to cure myself and how m i going to consult someone and finding cure. Life is all about making decision.
Choices that i m making now influence everything in the future~ FOREX...should i trust u and really into u? That is a big scarification on your study john, dream ,love and future. I should make a choice now...standing in the middle of a york choosing the right way to proceed... This is making life decision. I should choose forex .

Promotion of navy and start of the dream

Previously on this few days, i was doing the things and i like to do. study for this semester is quite free as all our project and assignment finish before test 2. On the last saturday i was hesitating of whether wana apply for the currently AirAsia cadet pilot recruitment. Finally decision have made and i have sent the resume and cover letter through online application. This is my golden chance although AirAsia was not my dream Airline but that is one of the subsidization of cadet pilot as well. I will improve myself drastically and prepare well upon called up to interview. Flight simulator training that i cant miss out on the preparation.
On 20th of OCT (yesterday), woke up at morning and shine my shine black cut leather shoes and iron my delta uniform smoothly.After have been joining Malaysia reserved Navy for one years plus, finally a promotion session has held at KD SRI MEDINI Tebrau naval base. The journey from Cadet to junior midshipment is such a hardship and tougher life. Pass in the fear and work everything to serve senior during training. In NAVY seniority is very addressed, no mater what also we also have to respect senior. Alfa routine which all the cadet of Navy should follow, ther is six rules such as cadet have to run upon see the sky, every step in counting such as salute, march and etc, eating square,drinking square, button up and move in a group. Life as a Navy is not an easier thing. That is totally difference from what i have joint during secondary school as school youth cadet.
DELTADog-tag Navy
Now, as a junior midshipment still have a long journey to go. Start worrying of the coming soon training ACT at headquarter base. What i heard from senior is much much tougher than we usual trained at UTM ACT. Whatever hardship come just come, i will never scare if it. rolling, push up, jumping set, starjump ,and........treat it as piece of cake hehe....What i wan from NAVY is an experience ,shooting wit GPMG, M16, AUG steyr and etc ...sailing experience that i most desire ...it is coming soon
AUG Steyr

L.I.F.E

3 test continuous that is really hard to take it... last saturday and sunday which is lantern festival ...i was so busy on preparing and arranging of stall selling. Tired, exhausted and fatigue what i gotta were sweet memory and a geng of brother and sister hehe...we really didnt differentiate who is responsible on this and who is responsible on that, what were in our mind is to succeed the event.
Today i m quite free as i m still lazy to start preparing for my next test o can be say as last test for this semester d. I just dont know why i keep on feeling tired and sleepy although i m doing nothing, maybe is mentality recovery after tension period.
Every event happen sure got matter behind it, sometimes i really sad of someone not really join into us and act lonely. I try to pull in but human is different in characteristic.
ok well, off this topic and i also no mood to talk about it.
How m i feeling recently ?
I always feel that i m not serious into everything, why i have this type of feeling ?
No idea hehe...but i have confident that everything i wan to do, i will do it better.
Time pass just like a flipping moment, i almost didnt realize that this semester is going off d...Next week will be the last week of my third semester, is time for me to review target that i set before.
My 1st target was to concentrate on my studies and to get 4 flat, i think i fail this.
2nd was to improve my english, well in the start of the semester i really did it but after busying on zhong qiu i fail to read english articles everyday.
3rd was to build body...seem like nothing improve haha...
Haix...all not really into plan, but never mind i will try to do it in the last week and fight for my exam. About my feeling after zhong qiu with someone...i dun know...my heart start falling again...its need time to prove does it really o not.
About my dream, the passion will never down, i will practice back the skill on flight simulator and crazy on aviation stuff.

A full stop for goodies dedication work

Two month i was so worry and headache ...finally i did it...zhong qiu(lantern festival) i sacrifice my time, spirit, and hard work.Lets me make a summary of it. The 1st recruitment member of my group (marketing) i was prepared to present in front but when the crowd is fulled the hall my heart beat start to become faster and faster. well nvm i tell myself just be who u are...The 1st few minute of explanation of my group was quite great but when the time i face the crowd i turn to be nervous. haix...really need to practice and practice. ok well my voice was absolutely ok as i attract a total of 120 members...yo ...absolutely great...but many members also got many problem. i was worry of the beginning because i totally dont have things for them to do except always ask them giving and squeezing ideas for the dedication goodies bag...the third week of asking all my member doing the same thing hahaha...finally cant wait to choose anymore. that two design is really hard to choose...and finally member from k11 gave me a big shock of their special design and also huh chen bring her sarawak box that at the top is a flower. i really miss to write blog as i stop quite a long time due to busy on many many many things. i steal my sleeping time to have some word on my abandon blog as the time now is 350am d and i really dun have energy to continue anymore...will update it soon and throw all my experience of preparing this lantern festival