Slack ?

Recently, often when i pee inside the toilet and look outside the window i see plane flying pass. That's not one or twice but always and so coincide. This deeply remind me of dun give up of pursuing pilot dream~~~
I start to read back what i used to read and surf, start finding pretty aircraft picture, start thinking of the way to be improve to the next level...
Think of having internship at the multinational turbine engine manufacturer Rolls Royce @ Singapore. That is the gut i have to try applying soon!!! no matter how it is, apply 1st and only decide where to stay over there. Before being there, there are a lot of thing that i need to prepare. To be the tough and great JOHN. Never be so childish mind anymore...Is time to make a Change...


New bird 787-8

嫁我是你一生的賭注，我怎麼舍得讓你輸！

兩個人每天面對面上班。她有時候會看著他走神兒。他有張好看而略微頹廢的臉，看得多了，他會注意到她，便總是衝著她笑。她低下頭，臉突然就紅了。很快，週圍的同事也窺測出她的心事來，頻繁開起他倆兩個人每天面對面上班。她有時候會看著他走神兒。他有張好看而略微頹廢的臉，看得多了，他會注意到她，便總是衝著她笑。她低下頭，臉突然就紅了。很快，週圍的同事也窺測出她的心事來，頻繁開起他倆的玩笑。

一來二去，他和她竟真成了戀人。他們都到了結婚的年齡。那天一起吃飯的時候，她猶豫著，提到了婚事。當時他愣了一下，沒有作答，半天才囁嚅著說，只怕……只怕以後，你跟著我會吃苦。不怕的。她小聲說。 他不再說話，輕輕嘆了口氣，在她看來，他算是答應了。

回到家，她把兩人的事告訴父母，遭到強烈反對。父親和他們是一個單位的，對他的印象不好，一直就反對他們交往。理由是，他是不上進的男人，懶散，沒事業心，還跟外面社會上一些不務正業的年輕人來往，女人跟了他以後，以後絕對沒有好日子過。尤其現在，工廠效益每況愈下，有能力的人都自己出去單幹，而他還在流水線上混著，一個月只有幾百塊錢。這樣的男人，沒前途的。

不僅父母，當初開他們玩笑的同事中，和她關系走的近的，也反對她嫁他，理由和父母一樣，說這樣的男人喜歡可以，絕對不能當丈夫。她卻鐵了心一般，不管誰勸，就是一句話：我就要跟他。父母失望至極，母親衝她嚷：你這是拿自己的幸福做賭注！她抬起頭，斬釘截鐵：就算是賭博，就算會輸，我也認了。所有人的阻止都無濟于事，24歲，她嫁他為妻。租了套小房子，從家裡搬了出去。這也似乎更證明了大家的猜測，他是她本命年的劫。

可事實卻出乎所有人的意料，結婚後的他像換了個人似的，分外刻苦努力起來。他先是離開半死不活的廠子，斷了外面那幫亂七八糟的朋友，去一家私企跑起業務。開始時沒底薪，他又是外行，不知道走了多少彎路，費了多少心思，總算艱難的在那家公司站住了腳。那一年，她看著他變得又黑又瘦，大夏天頂著太陽走在快被曬化的柏油馬路上，汗都顧不上擦。晚上幾乎沒有在10點之前回來過，一回家，倒在床上，衣服不脫就睡著了。

一年後，他的工作走上正軌，業務提成漸漸多了起來，而她卻下崗了。索性，他不讓她再出去工作了，安心呆在家裡，等著做母親。孩子出生的時候，他做了業務經理，手裡有大把的客戶，還在業餘時間重新學了英語和日語。公司給他配了車，他們按揭買了新房，每個人都看見了他的大好前途。

這時的她，因為生孩子胖了許多，又總不出門，穿衣服隨意起來，和他站在一起，竟有種不相配的感覺。此時，當初替他擔憂過的人又開始有了新的擔憂，擔心長著一對桃花眼的男人，會在這個時候離她而去。這個年頭這樣的事，簡直就是數不勝數。

但這次，大家又看錯了他，在他人生和事業不斷攀升的日子裡，他愛她始終如一。那愛，不知比戀愛時扎實了多少倍，是貼心貼肺的呵護。從衣食住行的大事到心情喜好的小事，他面面俱到，從來沒有忽略過。從她坐月子起，每天晚上，都是他給她洗腳，這個習慣一直被他保留了下來。他從來不隱瞞對她的感情，有時同時和朋友開玩笑說：什麼都換了，現在該換老婆了吧。他搖頭，認真的說：這輩子，就是她了。她的幸福，讓所有人無話可說。其實當初她也不確定會擁有這樣的幸福，那時她只是愛這個男子，舍不得離開他。哪怕跟著他吃苦，像她說的，她認了。

那天晚上，他又給她洗腳，溫暖在水中，他一如既往，把她的腳握在掌心。她忽然笑著問：怎麼會對我這麼好？這個問題其實已經在她心裡存了很久，她甚至還想問：如何會在就婚後，變了一個人？只是覺得不妥，所以只問了這一句，半開玩笑的口吻。他依舊蹲在她的面前，握著她的腳，抬起頭來，看了她片刻，然後認真的說：因為當初，你拿了自己一生的幸福做賭注，要跟著我，你是這個世界上唯一這樣信任我的人，我怎麼舍得讓你輸。她看見，向來愛說愛笑的他，說完這句話，眼圈紅了。

作為男人，不能讓一個能把自己終身幸福都押在你身上的女人輸，因為你輸不起，愛你的那個女人更輸不起!!
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幸福3126

LOVE❤!!! I found my love finally ~Truly felt what is the real meaning of love. That is amazing. There is important to meet the right person at the right time and also make the right decision. There is an articles i read before said that human is craving for love since they are born and keep searching for it until the time they meet the right ones.
yea~ that is true ...I had lot of failure and attempt before, to my dear whom is so sweet and warm i only have now!!! The pass was the past, all past memory were just buried because we dont live in the past.People grow from innocent and ignorant. Experience gain by failure...To be smart people we must learn from others experience.
The feeling of blissful is so unexplainable, you will smile when no body else or you will do everything just to let your life partner blissful...
She is so charming and sparkling ...She is my angle that fly high and soar freely in the sky...
My angle, beautiful girl...People will advise do not let yourself all in into love...Yea i know in reality love is cruel, but i willing to all in...

Hassle Morning

Good morning world ~ i woke up with a cheerful heart and nice sleep last night!!! That is so wonderful when i still feel that i m still breathing. Open my eyes read a warm msg and feel like life even more blissful with someone appearance in my life~
I surf on net ,watch my sexy candle stick that making $$$...FB as normal, news update as usual and suddenly click on my blog and surf for captain LIM website. There was a co-pilot B767 from japan air would like to swift his career to SIA . And the reply of captain lim have mention abt the cadet pilot position and i click the link ...Ehm SIA is just open the application on 23 of july ~~~My mood was suddenly plunge like crazy !!!wat should i do now ? I hassle for few moment and have a nice chat with pilot victor HO abt my situation now...Finally, I will still stick to my plan and finish uni life 1st b4 i apply for the interview as i wan i m totally prepare when the time i m going for SIA interview!!!SIA i m coming for u , just give me 2 more years !!! I love u

'Just Dont Be Lazy'

Erm...once everyone see this will wonder m i lazy for the previous time ? haha...actually is not lazy all the time but sometimes i do. Why i suddenly think of blogging this title is because last month i was attending a boy brigade concert @ penang sri pinang, there is one pastor delivering motivation speech to the teenage there.
The pastor keep telling the audience there with a powerful voice ' Just dont be lazy'
Can u hear tht? 'Just Dont be Lazy'...He also gave a lot of example why people should not lazy in their life in order to success...just a very simple word that everyone knows but does everyone practice it?
Erm...this word vividly impress my mind and until now i still can hear he is shooting beside me haha...When i think of this word i smile on my own means i should not be lazy anymore... I m doing better recently...
There is also one lecturer that gave us some inspiration word during his 1st lec, wat he told us was very simple, when u r in ur room tht is who u really r ...Do u tidy ur room ? fold ur clothes ? arrange ur time properly ? If u once open ur door and u sound 'shit' then u really shit...haha funny lecturer but is cool~ i totally agree, a person who do not know how to manage this all small tiny stuff how are u going to handle big project ? Gigantic company that even more thing to tidy and handle...so now, just start practicing with a discipline yet busy life and u will find out that is totally not hard to keep yourself and room clean all the time...Hehe..i have been mumbling here too long...Oh ghost, i have been stopping follow up aviation news...That is not right, i should keep up.
Good in financial knowledge and also never forget your dream...i knew it!!!:-)
Last and foremost, The is no man fail in their life, just only who give up to strive for it. Cheer always

Enjoy scarification and sacrificed the enjoyment

The title that i used this time is quite weird yet simple to understand. Most of the people know this meaning but how many people does actually practice it? lets ask how many people willing to sacrifice the enjoyment? Including myself...
I almost forgot this term until the time i came back here and stay now.
That is why recently i deeply review myself of what i have done in this passed few years...Things that make me felt guilty and uncertainties. Things that i did wrong of bad decision and playful heart...
Young man always had this so call young impulse. I felt that i'm getting more and more weak and lost concentration easily as the main reason is not willing to sacrifice. This means that lack of preparation and easily get influence of social seduction. Friends date, activity and so on...one word tht is not willing to be alone ...Find excuses for myself of joining activity will get more knowledge and just arrange time properly u will manage to handle but end up this 2 years...Ah john fail...A person can be very busy and intense, but when the time u ask the person to sit down and relax he o she definitely cant do that as is used to hectic life~~~
When the time on intense pursuing life target we forget ourself and origin . Even yourself cant really understand who u are...Meditation...settle down and think!!!Enjoy the moment of silence heart while sacrifice the time that u think is precious and $$...End up you will find yourself more meaningful with the intense life...As you know what u r doing and who are you :-D
I used to fall asleep when meditate ...too bad ...But when i meditate i will think of myself and start reviewing ...
Now, the age of 22, have to seriously look at how is yourself after pass few years?
If still passing life like this i guarantee, i will be still the same...No motivation and talk empty...
My dream , what i wish since the age of child have become more and more reality ~ people always said that reality is cruel, yea i agreed ...
My result drop like shit although this semester i did try my best i confessed. But why the same still happen to me?
Through meditation and inner review, the lack of inner heart scarification...No matter how discipline of myself i still cant really get into what i have studied...The term greedy and rush...as a young man who does not wan a new car? a lot of money ? But we can never rush for it as we have to climb up the ladder step by step... The process of life...No one have shortcut and no one is most luckily ...Life is fair i believed ~ Whatever we wan we have to attain it by ourself as our destiny is in our hands.
Decision of your life depends of your scarification

What i felt

Today 23rd of may 2010 , i have attended to a charity food fair @ vaidurya Buddhist lodge temple bukit mertajam . Actually, i was an volunteer helper since the time after i joining the shorten monk experience camp. The camp really change me a lot until now. For those who are not Buddhist, u may try and understand. For me, Buddhism teaching really have a great impact toward social and people life. Although i m not a good Buddhist follower but i just know that everyone has a mercy heart. We should tolerance each other in order to live peacefully...
Everyone has sin, but Buddha told us that if we do lot of goodwill and this will add our merit in order to reduce sin...i m not good in this , so is just to tell that do something with no regrets in heart. For the pass is the past. We should learn from it and be our lesson in the future. So dont kill even a small ant, they are living.
Sorry for those who i had hurt before and thankful for those that giving me the lesson...Life keep changing, people we met and interacted will change our life. We will not realize that the change until the moment u flashback and facing something that u dont wish to happen. We should honest and dont lie. I should great that now i meet someone that really let me feel what we do should always feel appreciate and what we have now as well.
When come into our mind, What is our really 'needs' and 'intended' ?
Thats totally difference, Our intended needs is not actually the needs that we actually should have, is just our thinking i need it now and i want it now. What if u cant have it now? A mind sick popping out , sadness , and worst depression as we too wanted to have it. What about lets think another way round, it just not the time to have it but when the time is correct your intended need will become your needs...
Just do the best and appreciate everything that our current status now.
Ops ...too fussy in talking this and haven talk about the charity that i did today.
Since yesterday i was helping at the temple d, i arrange the table and the candle light. Helping all the stuff that needed. i was happy to meet all the old friend back hehe~ cheer