Life of happiness

Recently, i have stopped my blog for two weeks and i m gonna start it again. what do you actually define happy, glad o cheer ? Thats it happy when u got what u wan o suddenly have a surprise ? I m feeling it from my inner heart recently, the truly happy meant by me. Though you guys may not agree with me but from what i m feeling that is it.The feeling of not being stressed even though have lot of things to do. The inner gladness that smile on your own, the satisfaction of everything have done. Forgiveness and loveliness. I don't know that i m growing up o what, but i m getting more self confident and strongly motivated because of having cheerful heart. Just a simple msg can keep me smiling for the whole day. What i meant is the vitamin. sometimes i dun know how to concern a people that i really care, but im learnig. i cant deny that i m a careless person and some time makes lot of silly mistake but i will be more careful on the next time.
I start my 1st ever forex trading arld and the process is my little secret. What i realize since the 1st day i get to forex is discipline if you wana make forex as your income. Now is the time for me to really do something seriously. Two things in my mind. Forex and someone ~

Moody day

Have you ever thought before what would you be in the future? Have ever thought of what have you done in the pass few years?
I'm wondering today! Thousand of uncertainties came across my head since saturday night when i was being alone at room surfing...until the next day i woke up i listen to the song tht someone gave me...make me more emo-ing...If a day of my life without smile and happiness what would the day become? I question myself what is the life really mean? This question sound like mundane but in the teaching of Buddhism i learn before and i have totally lost of it now...losing the light in front the travel of darkness is the scary thing. I should back to the temple for renovating myself and back to the actual mean of life...

Finally I can land

When everyone are enjoying their holidays and so i do...i have been practicing flight simulator for two years but i didnt really get into it cause every time i fly and i crash so i easily get disappointed. I also have stopped for a while last semester as i m busy for something. When flying the tutorial i can land but when going to free flight with B737-800 from langkawi to penang i cant land it smoothly...During the tutorial by using learjet c-70 the 1st officer will take over the radio communication and the ils(instrument landing system) also turn on by the 1st officer...the approach altitude and speed is also check by the 1st officer or can be say computer, i just follow and feel the joystick, end up i can land in tutorial. Finding an airport by using navigation is not hard but when come to controlling aircraft speed there is the problem...I still need to figure out how to use ils. As what i read from website there is certain procedure to carry on, like setting frequency of atc(air traffic control) and get contact of it.But after i read it i still cant get it. Dont know where to switch on. Really need to know all of that...i can land at penang this past weekend because i have been practicing for 3 days of holidays ...sure no problem as when i see the island i know what is the speed should set and the altitude as well. This is not i know how to use ils but is i play until familiar already hahaha...Hardly practice until the papi light(precision approach path indicator) change to 2 red 2 white...always get 4 red walao...poor FS pilot...But finally with all this 3 days practice, i can land liao hehe...without crash and can taxing to the gate...wahahaha...

Merry Christmas

I am here to write my blog because i am free and passing my Merry x'mas @ UTM. I was glad as i choose to pass it quietly with my fellow course mate and faculty mate which frm pure and aero mechanical. On the christmas eve night, we was hungry finding a restaurant for our dinner.6 of us decided to go in a place that is full of romance atmosphere restaurant. Christmas eve oh should reward urself with something special as everyone does. I ordered a set of christmas chicken chop with crab soup and tiramisu cake plus peach drink.Clever restaurant boss increase the price in this particular special date in order to chop couple but end up we six 'ma lat lou' get chopping till fresh blood come out haha...

On the christmas day morning, Vintonio ask me to go church oh...Erm he is not christian but kok lun does, consider for a while, go la because got free lunch haha and also was alone in room...Before being there i knew the activity sure is singing and have the talk about Christianity. Finally i understand that why christian celebrate christmas and some knowledge about christmas...not bad too... Performance of former UTMers

Christmas sure will have christmas gift, i received one unexpected christmas gift and also be the first of my christmas gift ever...i like it so much and hang it in front of my table so that i can see it everyday once i sit at the table.The expression of the snowman make me smile every time i look at it. I appreciate it so much and thank you. I think before of the christmas celebration atmosphere in christian country such as U.S o England.. Must be very fun and warm if celebrate over there. I receive another two christmas gift on the morning as well. one is lucky draw gift but have to answer question only can get and the other is a door gift. The question i answered is Where was jesus christ was born? Lucky i know is at manger as i concentrate to their activity.

My special Christmas gift

Feel great,warm and appreciate of everyday life...

4th semester

This is the first week of my 4th semester, I was passing my week according to what I have planned. During the three week of NAVY training I was so free and my mind was empty. What I everyday done when on that training is to plan for my life. I think is the time for me to become mature and grow up now. Remember when I was teenage I tend to act like an adult and everyone told me that u are so conservative, after that during form six I transformed my living style to be more playful and funny but end up until now I still in the state of playful mind. Erm…21st liao is time to start your journey, to be a gentleman and stable pursuing great dream.(life no second chance, time is gold,)
A healthy mind comes with a healthy life style. Plan your life and you will feel that life is so meaningful without wasting time and blaming. Love is the part of our life, to really clear about love it takes time. There is a gal ask me what is the reason of having partner while in university? At that time I really don’t know how to answer because i was conquered by the playful mind and enjoying live like no worries. Then she asked me again, izzit having a gal’s friend is just to accompanying you for dinner and make you feel not lonely? From that time I really think that what she said is right. I try hard to find out the answer and observed every couple in the university. I gave myself a conclusion, ya if you having a gal’s friend you will just miss out the time crazing with course mate and the time for yourself enjoying uni life.
Few reason that always floating in my mind is having gal’s friend just wasting time, wasting money, wasting energy and torture yourself. But recently I find out that I was wrong and this little excuse is no longer effective to me anymore when you fall in love.
I read an email sent by her of how to distinguish between like and love. This really wake me up that I no longer like her but is…. First time I m tackling gals with patient and never think being together until both are stable. The path I choose is hard I know and the journey for me to success to be a pilot is more hard. I didn’t wish to be together with her quickly but the spirit and encouraging of her few words make me feel everything with me. I hope that this small little feeling can grow up naturally and healthily as my sense tell me that this time your feeling is correct and the choice is brilliant as well. I just give my love to fate and my destiny for myself. Love cant force because it deal with both party but my dream…will never give up >.<

Three weeks of training plus one week of holiday

From 16 of nov til 5 of dec, I was undergoing palapes navy training at utm and lumut KDSI 1. Before I start the training I was accompanying my course mate visiting penang island and I be their tour guide. This trip was interesting and fun. Two night they stayed at my house ,one night at xian house and another one at hotel sri saying batu ferringi . About 4pm we were boarding at the body of A320 AirAsia flight from penang to JB. The weather condition looks like not with us at that time and we hit by severe thunderstorm and the plane was slightly flutter .The time I reach my hostel K11 is 6pm and I was seeing them entering mass for their dinner. After that I was rushing to prepare all my uniform that haven iron and start shining my black cut. About 7pm they all rushing to room preparing for night round. I also prepare as well for the night round but I haven have dinner and my hair haven cut so I didn’t join for the night round. A lonely night over tmn u having dinner and cutting my hair at an Indian barber shop. Once I go back and haven bath I was called up for fitting No.1 uniform and later on get punishment form GI (Gunnery instructor). Training goes on as usual wake up at 5am and fall in at 545am. This is the routine at UTM ,the routine at KDSI was different ,4am have to wakey wakey (wake up) and 430am have to muster(fall in) 5am start our EMA(early morning activity) .
During the time at KDSI 1, we seldom get hard punishment and their main focus was in lecture coz next year we have to undergo practical d….The weather was really hot, I was tan til like a malay guy and if I was mix with all malay fellow nobody will recognize me as Chinese. I had two new name during the training. At utm Army staff was calling me Hussien and at KDSI 1 NAVY instructor calling me Ahmad wei. WTF la….haha…Really hard to pass, physically and mentality exhausted. I learnt a lot during the training and also know that is not easy to be a navy. Although a navy can sail around the world but the process to be an officer is totally suck…feel pity and sad for the regular coz their training is totally tough. This training change me a lot, I become more discipline people and more mature when facing problems. The feeling of stable due to I was in the tension mood for three weeks. When come out everything was just small matter. Made some friends from others university, umt,usm,upm,uum and um…all are good friend hehe…hope to see you guys next year. Shore leave at KDSI 1 haha, every time shore leave also went to ah yan house to sleep coz too tired d…
Back to home story, as usual always be people driver haha…drive here drive there. But luckily I got my own time writing blog and dating someone once I go back. We have lot of conversation and having a movie. Although the movie was damn bored but I didn’t feel bored and happy together wit her. Hope that she is feeling as well.

Holidays of a Navy man

Erm...maybe this is my last post of this semester already. This semester past really fast. just like a flashing of light and a flipping of eye. I still remember the time i fly to jb and also my 1st time of flying...the feeling is still here...this semester really change me a lot...got good also got bad...nothing is perfect. the next day i have one more paper that is manufacturing...after that i straight away going back home accompanying course mate visiting penang island. After finish mechanic of solid paper i clean up my room and pack all my stuff in to boxes for clearing room purpose...although i have training in the college next week but we still need to clear the room as we have an agenda of so called night round that make sure our room is in tidy and clean condition...that stupid night round is damn very fussy , every time after we back to room we need to mop the floor and all the desk ,cabin and every single piece of thing in the room...
if the officer find out some dust then variety of punishment will be kena haha...
I am going to be torture and abuse by the officer next week and the duration of training is one week at uni and two week at head quarter(FOC). I hate side roll coz it makes me suffering from the feeling of vomiting. i wont vomit but others will so the smell make me feel disgusting and going to vomit as well. two days roll once enough then my head will be feeling like spinning every moment ...that is what a navy guy need to take.
An more interesting story will be written out when i finish training...hiax...back to this semester story, erm..i knew to play forex (an introduction only), and made a lot of sei tong @ zhong qiu out there...I make a regretful thing during zhong qiu...my heart was so narrow that i dun like angie covering her friends and try to negotiate wit me abt stall problem...that is just a small matter but wider the gaps btw me and her...finally i realize tht i was wrong and should not because of this tiny thing let her suffering all the hardship in preparing of the lantern event. I should always give her full support and giving big hand when she needs. But i really dun know what should help coz she never shares her problem wit us...haix...dun talk this liao ...her scar will never gone when the incident happened during fake preview. One more lesson for me also, never target on some one is still in the period of recovery coz anytime she will back to her ex. Thats all, Hope the coming semester i would be more enriching. As the time constrain , my language use also blur haha...if there is any grammar mistake o spelling pls do correct me in the bar chat. Happy holiday to all and Mr john...dream to a pilot will never cool down