What i felt

Today 23rd of may 2010 , i have attended to a charity food fair @ vaidurya Buddhist lodge temple bukit mertajam . Actually, i was an volunteer helper since the time after i joining the shorten monk experience camp. The camp really change me a lot until now. For those who are not Buddhist, u may try and understand. For me, Buddhism teaching really have a great impact toward social and people life. Although i m not a good Buddhist follower but i just know that everyone has a mercy heart. We should tolerance each other in order to live peacefully...
Everyone has sin, but Buddha told us that if we do lot of goodwill and this will add our merit in order to reduce sin...i m not good in this , so is just to tell that do something with no regrets in heart. For the pass is the past. We should learn from it and be our lesson in the future. So dont kill even a small ant, they are living.
Sorry for those who i had hurt before and thankful for those that giving me the lesson...Life keep changing, people we met and interacted will change our life. We will not realize that the change until the moment u flashback and facing something that u dont wish to happen. We should honest and dont lie. I should great that now i meet someone that really let me feel what we do should always feel appreciate and what we have now as well.
When come into our mind, What is our really 'needs' and 'intended' ?
Thats totally difference, Our intended needs is not actually the needs that we actually should have, is just our thinking i need it now and i want it now. What if u cant have it now? A mind sick popping out , sadness , and worst depression as we too wanted to have it. What about lets think another way round, it just not the time to have it but when the time is correct your intended need will become your needs...
Just do the best and appreciate everything that our current status now.
Ops ...too fussy in talking this and haven talk about the charity that i did today.
Since yesterday i was helping at the temple d, i arrange the table and the candle light. Helping all the stuff that needed. i was happy to meet all the old friend back hehe~ cheer

A single day

This is the day where i finally can take a deep breath and talk to myself: john is time for u to have a break and enjoy your birthday !!!yea, i m coming~ project finish,busy week ended and at this moment and i cant wait anymore to share here that i have successfully design a toothpaste squeezer which i felt that is a very potential product and brings lot of benefit to the user.

Man towards maturity porblem

Fist and foremost, what do we define maturity? This is very subjective question...I m trying so hard act like a mature man but end up facing void and loneliness...Why m i facing this emotional unstable? At first the spirit is super damn high but creeping lame and emotional unstable and tend to act like a child blaming everything in front of her...what a shame!!! After quite some time of finding solution toward this problem i was realized one thing is just to be yourself. No one like you to act purposely. You are the best ard john...just keep up your spirit of fighting yea...Let me list down what should an emotional mature man should have...

1st Do not blame instead solving problem and find solution. Blaming is just wasting of time and making your emotional become even more worse than b4 your are. In order to be like this man should be tough and cant easily give up. I'm lucky guy tough as she didnt disappointed on me because of this downturn instead help me finding my problem. Thanks...No more next time
2nd Decisive, do not hesitate of making any decision as this will lower down your confident level...just do it. we are still young and dare to take challenges. A hesitate man just let people feel that u r just like a boy stil cant make any decision for your life.
3rd Being responsibility. That is all human being should have but man just have even more heavier responsible to carry out...just be strong man...
4th warm relationship. For sure man should have a warm relationship with all over friends. Let others feel this man are great and comfort to join. he is so warm and friendly. gals would like to feel that others is envy of her xin fu.
This is what i can share with all abt my experience toward a better man.

Erm on the last saturday, i was visiting to the ceremony of chingay at johor baru. this is my 1st time of watching such a chinese cultural night and remind me that our cultural should be protected as it is so wonderful. Lion dance, dragon dance, big head dolls and many many...what an unforgettable night for me.In fact i was planning to bring her along but she have others that more important things to be done. jia you ...Man are what we believe . Believe in success than the fortune will always follow you .

FEB of 2010

Woo…this few days just had my pretty much own time hehe…Let me shared what I felt during my visit to Singapore airshow. That is totally awesome airshow. On the early morning 7th of FEB, I woke up at 7am and had my bath. On my planning schedule I have to reach JB custom by 8am. Blooooo…thts is how my motorbike engine was started and departed from K11 hostel. The time for me to reach there is exactly what I have planned. Passing through Malaysia custom then Singapore and taken CW2 straight away to bugis.



My tired face of after finishing organizing GO-Explorace….(On the bus CW2 heading bugis)
This can be counted as my 1st time go oversea alone!!! What a great experience, but I treat Singapore as the familiar place d…
The heart beat start increasing when the MRT are going to reach changi, can’t wait to see those giant aircraft anymore. Yo …on the 10am, I m on the shuttle bus to the exhibition centre …saw lot of huge machine taking off from the runway, tats is totally busy airport. When the time I reached changi exhibition centre I just can see the long queue of ppl along the entry to the hall.
I hardly control my leg not to increasing the speed, but I cant do it as my leg walk faster and faster just to get into the exhibition area. After a tight security screening, finally I saw those giant machine in front of me….My mood started changing …woo…that is what I waited and what I wished to see…finally I m here.
The 1st fighter jet I saw was the raptor from usa, I have read before its whole story. What a sophisticated stealth fighting jet.

The raptor F-135
The weather was so hot, I walked around and kept on flashing all the aircraft. But the sad thing is I can’t take the picture together with the aircraft as I m alone and no one holding for me. But I able to get some with the help of the friendly aviation crazy fans out there haha…

Photo with US airforce…cool man
I feeling that I m not gonna to waste time photographing with all the aircraft by queuing up instead I explore inside the exhibition hall. With the hope can meet lot of huge company staff but haha…just have a chat with flying school from Australia and the pretty gal from Roll-rocye company. Asking abt how much is the latest bypass ratio of the latest trend-1000 jet engine used by boeing787.
Exploring, exploring and exploring…Oh ya the climax time have reached which was the flying display…
Felt excited with the daring pilot performing their flying skill. But I still do think that this few show still can’t beat what I have seen in the video. However, the feeling of listening, and keeping the eyes on the speeding jet at the scene was totally different from what I watched in the video. One word awesome.

Finally, I able to train myself with poor self-portrait skill with the A330-200f fuel efficiency wide body.
There is lot and lot of pictures I have taken. I do not able to post it out here. Maybe u guys can visit my facebook for more.
Erm…During the CNY, my heart just missing someone and I cant control myself not to miss her anymore. Whatever things I do, wherever I’m, I m still thinking of her. I cant leave my phone even for half an hour, I just keep check up the phone izzit the msg coming. Dare not always text her msg as not to let her feel I’m so ‘fan’… I keep smiling myself when think of the 1st day of cny and the hiking trip.
The feeling is getting stronger and stronger, the love which I always waiting for, the pampering feeling which I wana give to her ,the idea partner I wish to find and more and more inexpressible feeling toward her. I admit this time I fall in. The persistency and patience really test my love toward her. How to really get understand a person is hard. But I will try my best. Never give up. All in I bet … and I will never let u lose.
A dream life and a dream job ….
Man great because of dream

After test outing

someone was just started her busy week and i m done with my business~ i m busy on the boothing promotion now for STEP which means save the environment people! I spend lot of time with the interns fromm Brazil, new zealand, Australia, and china. Feel more confident when speaking after sometime spending with them. They just patiently listen to what i said and correct me when i was wrong ~thank you.
i was having fun with the cny interns party, farewell for sam, and beach surfing at desaru beach. pretty awesome that ben teach how to surf. i m loving it now hehe~I do not scare for big wave anymore as i know how to deal with the big wave with the surfing skill.




Dont ever scare to try if you dont know. Feel bad because i seldom read about aviation news recently. Should keep it up...Cant wait to visit singapore airshow anymore...must be pretty cool with daring pilot performance. i will take lot of picture for sure hehe....

Life of happiness

Recently, i have stopped my blog for two weeks and i m gonna start it again. what do you actually define happy, glad o cheer ? Thats it happy when u got what u wan o suddenly have a surprise ? I m feeling it from my inner heart recently, the truly happy meant by me. Though you guys may not agree with me but from what i m feeling that is it.The feeling of not being stressed even though have lot of things to do. The inner gladness that smile on your own, the satisfaction of everything have done. Forgiveness and loveliness. I don't know that i m growing up o what, but i m getting more self confident and strongly motivated because of having cheerful heart. Just a simple msg can keep me smiling for the whole day. What i meant is the vitamin. sometimes i dun know how to concern a people that i really care, but im learnig. i cant deny that i m a careless person and some time makes lot of silly mistake but i will be more careful on the next time.
I start my 1st ever forex trading arld and the process is my little secret. What i realize since the 1st day i get to forex is discipline if you wana make forex as your income. Now is the time for me to really do something seriously. Two things in my mind. Forex and someone ~

Moody day

Have you ever thought before what would you be in the future? Have ever thought of what have you done in the pass few years?
I'm wondering today! Thousand of uncertainties came across my head since saturday night when i was being alone at room surfing...until the next day i woke up i listen to the song tht someone gave me...make me more emo-ing...If a day of my life without smile and happiness what would the day become? I question myself what is the life really mean? This question sound like mundane but in the teaching of Buddhism i learn before and i have totally lost of it now...losing the light in front the travel of darkness is the scary thing. I should back to the temple for renovating myself and back to the actual mean of life...