Life of happiness

Recently, i have stopped my blog for two weeks and i m gonna start it again. what do you actually define happy, glad o cheer ? Thats it happy when u got what u wan o suddenly have a surprise ? I m feeling it from my inner heart recently, the truly happy meant by me. Though you guys may not agree with me but from what i m feeling that is it.The feeling of not being stressed even though have lot of things to do. The inner gladness that smile on your own, the satisfaction of everything have done. Forgiveness and loveliness. I don't know that i m growing up o what, but i m getting more self confident and strongly motivated because of having cheerful heart. Just a simple msg can keep me smiling for the whole day. What i meant is the vitamin. sometimes i dun know how to concern a people that i really care, but im learnig. i cant deny that i m a careless person and some time makes lot of silly mistake but i will be more careful on the next time.
I start my 1st ever forex trading arld and the process is my little secret. What i realize since the 1st day i get to forex is discipline if you wana make forex as your income. Now is the time for me to really do something seriously. Two things in my mind. Forex and someone ~

Moody day

Have you ever thought before what would you be in the future? Have ever thought of what have you done in the pass few years?
I'm wondering today! Thousand of uncertainties came across my head since saturday night when i was being alone at room surfing...until the next day i woke up i listen to the song tht someone gave me...make me more emo-ing...If a day of my life without smile and happiness what would the day become? I question myself what is the life really mean? This question sound like mundane but in the teaching of Buddhism i learn before and i have totally lost of it now...losing the light in front the travel of darkness is the scary thing. I should back to the temple for renovating myself and back to the actual mean of life...